However, about 30mins after I started getting this HUGE pit in my stomach and all of a sudden all I wanted to do was throw up. I felt sick. I could barely take 2 bites of my dinner. Luckily, I had plans for the night and my friends were over so I was going to be do something to keep my mind off it. The distraction of my friends worked up until it was time to go to bed. The pit was back and I couldn't sleep at all that night. All I kept thinking about was how he told me she goes to school in the midwest while he lives on the east coast. HE'S DOING A LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP AGAIN! Granted, he said she's moving out to the east coast this summer after she is done with school but still that's not till May! This is a guy who can't think about 3 days into the future let alone 7 months from now. I just don't get it. I guess it must mean he really likes her.
When he was telling me about her he also decided to tell me how their relationship went bad for a bit because he forgot her birthday but everything was fine now. I don't need to know about their relationship. I am happy that he met someone but I don't need to know details. Ugh. I think if he had just told me her and now details of their relationship I would feel a lot better about it right now.
So as I was trying to fall asleep I thought that I would write out a text expressing all of this to get my emotions out and hopefully the pit would go away. Below is what I wrote out but I did not send it yet, I am still deciding if I should or not.
It's long I know. Still don't know if I should send it right now or wait to see if he texts me about their relationship again and draw the line then.So you know how you said if I ever needed to talk you'd always be there? Well I'm cashing that in. Let me start out by saying that all I ever want is for you to be happy. I am glad you met someone else and I can tell that you really like her because you're already talking about begin with her next summer when you usually can't even see yourself 3days into the future haha and since you like her I am sure she is a wonderful person. I kinda already knew you met someone since you were never telling me when you were in town and figured that since you just started seeing someone new it wouldn't be right to see me which I completely understand. You've always been considerate and loyal in that way. So when you told me it just confirmed what I already knew so it made it easy for me to be happy for you in that moment. I am really glad you told me because I would've hated hearing from someone else but since then I've felt a huge pit in my stomach and I haven't been able to sleep. I wish that wasn't the case but unfortunately it is. It would probably have been a lot easier if you had just told me you were gay haha Anyways, like I said I am glad you told me but could we be friends without talking about your relationship? Like I said I'm glad you met someone and I'm glad that everything is working out between you two but it's still a little weird and hard to hear about it.