About My Past Relationship

My ex and I dated for almost 4 years. We met when I was a Freshman in college and he was a Senior. He had skipped 2 grades when he was younger so although he was 3 years ahead of me in school he was only a year older than me. We met through my new college roommates. He went to a college that was about an hour away from the college I went to. However, we both had friends that went to each other's colleges so when we were visiting our friends we would always meet up. He would tell my new roommates that he really liked me but I was hesitant about dating. Being the logical thinker I am, before starting college I had told myself that I would not date anyone freshman year because I wanted to make friends and get into the groove of college before I got into a relationship. Well, I started liking him and all that logic went out the window of my dorm. 

We started dating in November and two months later he found out that after graduation in May he would be taking a job on the east coast (I went to school in the midwest). Since I had already thrown all logic out the window we decided that we would continue our relationship and try long distance after. Long distance was hard but for the first year we saw each other almost every 2 weeks. He would fly in to see me or I would fly to see him. However, as the years went on our relationship became less of a priority to him and we started to see each other less and less. Granted, he started law school so he had less time to see me than he did while he was working. But when he did have time he was choosing to see his friends over me. I started to see this about 3 years into our relationship so I tried to talk about it and when that didn't go anywhere I tried to break up with him. However, when I tried he started crying and I could see the heartbreak in his eyes. He told me that he loved me an that he would try harder and that he would change. This same conversation happened a few too many times but when he would tell me he would try, I believed him because I was still head over heels in love with him and I think he believed he could change too. However, at the end of the day this wasn't the case and 4 years after we started dating we decided to break up. 

I wish I could say a bunch of bad stuff about my ex but that isn't the case. He is a great guy. However, even though he wanted and thought he was ready for a relationship, he wasn't. And in turn, I ended up as the one that's heartbroken.